May Your Will Be Done

Dear Lord,

I am tired.

Two steps forward,

and somehow,

two steps back.

I do not have the strength

to keep fighting

for what will never be mine.

So give me the strength to let go.

To stop worrying

about what they will think.

Dearest,

I hope you know

I was patient.

When you showed no interest,

I told myself one day you would.

When you spoke,

I held on to every word.

All I ever wanted

was to exist in a space

where you were free to be yourself

and let me be part of it.

Dearest,

you never chose me.

You never will.

And now,

I finally know that.

Dear Lord,

why do I still hold on to hope?

Why do I make a fool of myself

for something so clear?

Take this burden from me.

Dearest,

this is my goodbye.

And I will not apologize for it,

because I know

you will never fight for me.

May your days

be filled with happiness.

Dear Lord,

give me strength of mind

to stand firm

in difficult decisions.

Give me resilience

so I do not go back.

Dearest,

go in peace.

For I will no longer

hold you captive in my heart.

Dear Lord,

may Your will be done.