Penned Thoughts #1

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The one thing I never got right 
Friends 
How to make them 
How to keep them 
Or how to be chosen by them 

The one mistake I never could solve 
Friends
How to put myself before others
How to let go when it hurts 
How to have the courage to say what I feel 

The one thing I kept accepting 
Friends 
How they keep me on a leash short enough 
To stay 
But not long enough to be me 
How they pretend to be real 
But are wolves in sheep clothing 

The one friendship that broke my heart 
No. 1116
If only I was brave enough to say 
What I felt 
To leave when you didn’t chose me 
To refuse to come second when I put you first 
But oh, 
The heart wants what it wants 
Who can understand it 

Friends
If only I could master that 

But you;
You were never just a friend
And maybe that
Was the mistake
I never knew how to fix

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